Sometimes I need to go to bed at 7:30…

I’ve definitely talked about cutting yourself some slack before. There are times in our lives that are physically and/or emotionally challenging and, therefore, we need to cut slack in other areas. Maybe your relationship just ended and you’re emotionally distraught. It’s okay to have a little extra ice cream while you regroup or sleep in and miss a workout or two. Maybe you’re in a transition period of your life with new everything and feeling unsettled. That’s a time to step back and really figure out what self care means to you. I’m trying to do that currently…

 
Don’t get me wrong, the transition that I’m in currently has been the best thing that’s happened to me. It’s just been a lot of work and very tiring. I’ve come to realize that eating more indulgent foods, spending more money to see friends and exercising less is my way of cutting slack in areas where I’m usually more diligent. I physically don’t have the energy to run or the mental capacity to budget my money after working and a two hour commute. I don’t cook on weekdays and meals become boring which leads to overeating (for me). I try my best to meal prep on weekends but more often than not I find myself eating avocado toast (hey I’m totally okay with that). Yes, there have been times where I mentally beat myself up for eating high fat comfort foods and not exercising. Then I take a step back and say, “Woah, Megan. This is not fair. You’ve already taken on a lot. Give yourself some credit.” While I know eating fruits and vegetables and exercising will make me feel better I also know that some days (if not most days) I need to lie down and watch copious amounts of Netflix…and eat some ice cream. Or drink some wine…or both. Food is so much more than nutrients.

Now I’m trying to listen to my body and identify what I need in the moment with no judgement. Easier said than done.



So what steps have I taken?

1. Reading social media and blog posts that support this mentality. It’s hard enough to deal with your own internal struggle, don’t let others get you down too. 

2. Journal. Sometimes so much is going on I can’t pinpoint what I’m feeling or what I need. So I write it out. Sometimes it becomes clear and sometimes not, but the process helps.

3. Set SMALL goals that are achievable. Mine right now is to drink 1500ml at work (my water bottle has measurements). When I do this I feel so much better on the commute home. I’m not a fan of goals that restrict, I like to add in a good habit. 

4. Sleep. This has been the most challenging for me. Getting up at 4:30 is HARD. But when I’m asleep by 8:30 the next day feels so much better. It doesn’t mean I’ll definitely exercise or eat all my vegetables, but it’s a step in the right direction.
Baby steps. 

Right now is not the time for me to exercise five days a week and cook homemade meals. It’s not the time to be overly strict about money if it means seeing friends and getting out. This is my right now. Mine, not anybody else’s. So I’m going to work on being okay with that. While I wait for a train that is never coming…

Summer Food Lately

I started my new job today! Woohoo!!! So excited. But I really want to share some recent delicious eats with you. It’s been good lately.


Kale massaged with goddess dressing and all the veggies on top. Black beans for protein. Avocado English muffin on the side because I was starving. Listen to your body, it knows what it needs.


I’ve eaten ¾ of a watermelon in 3 days. Must eat the rest before it goes bad!


Plain yogurt mixed with a scoop of peanut butter for more staying power. Topped with maple sunrise cereal (by Natures Path) and all the blueberries. Cannot wait for blueberry season. 


Salmon grilled with a chive and fill yogurt sauce, grilled veggies and quinoa. I would eat salmon everyday…


Smoothie for the commute. I was a little too nervous to drink it on the train for fear of spilling it on my new blazer. Tomorrow I’m wearing white so the nerves will accompany me again. But why drink it on the train when I can save it for this view?

Every night will end with a homemade fudgesicle from now on. Too good!!! Basically melted dark chocolate mixed with plain Greek yogurt and milk. 

Sandwich(es)

I love a good sandwich just as anyone else. Especially when it’s made on fluffy, soft bread. Turkey or chicken salad are my favorites, but peanut butter and jelly never disappoints. The whole day wasn’t just about sandwiches though.

The purpose of today was spending time with family. I drove to the cape early in the morning and hit no traffic!! Point to point it only took me 35 minutes and I had some jams to pump me up for the race. 

We got to the start, which definitely was where I had my senior pictures taken; Town Neck Beach in Sandwich. We got some awesome t-shirts with entry, but no numbers. I loved that timing was done cross-country-race style with popsicle sticks. It made the race more relaxed and just a fun way to spend the morning. 


I ran with my cousin and we chatted the whole way. I love running as a reason to see friends and family and get a chance to talk. I also love exploring new places by running. And Sandwich is such a cute town. The race was put on by volunteers and they really made the race! 


Have you ever seen anyone happier?!

About two miles in my right hip started hurting. Typical IT band issues these days. But I finished and that’s the farthest I’ve ran in a month!! 

I love this picture! Nobody around on a foggy morning run!


The rain picked up once the race ended and I mean poured buckets. We braved it, though, to enjoy Sandwich fest and I hope to come back in future years!! Yes, it’s that much fun.

To escape the rain we found the tent with the food vendors and signed up for the 11am tasting. This included 11 samples after which we would vote for our favorite! The samples were huge and I only finished my favorites, but definitely tried them all. I can’t wait to hear who won! There was definitely something for everyone. 



After stuffing ourselves we explored the booths and had some fun getting free things. I found the cutest tote bag and clutch but alas I’m trying to save some money these days…I will remember it though. 

It was a perfect morning in my opinion even though it poured and was a bit chilly. I’m now hot and tired and just being lazy with the pup. Can’t complain too much. What a week. Relaxing before real life starts on Monday, although I can’t wait.

Two years and lots of hard work paid off…

It’s been one month since this happened: 


And 23 days ago I ran a marathon.


Then I moved back home and spent about a week in Maine, some of those days with two of my dearest friends.


Since being home I’ve realized just how much I miss my home. Vermont. I miss my favorite places, walking downtown, running along the bike path, good beer, and all my favorite restaurants. It’s hard being in a place that I am so familiar with but feel so distant to. Therefore I am so looking forward to moving to Boston. I can’t wait to find new favorite places, try all of the amazing food, run along the water, join some workout groups to meet people, and be close enough to visit my parents and Julie! It’s exciting!!

Yes, it may be a long summer, but it’s full of new beginnings. A new job. A future new home. New friends. And new credentials…

MS, RDN has a nice ring to it. 

Now to complete the process by becoming licensed in Massachusetts.

A Weekend to Remember

A perfect weekend if you ask me, even though we had to study.

Thursday I drove up to camp and met my dad for the night. We ordered two (very) large pizzas so my friends and I could have leftovers. 


Friday

I studied in the morning and turned the heat on because it was freezing. My studying was very poor because I was so excited for my friends to get here.

Christine and Rebecca arrived a little after one and we chatted for a while to catch up before *trying* to study. Once it hit 5pm it was time for happy hour. Red wine for the win. 


That night we made the best dinner. We didn’t have a blender but our cilantro peanut sauce still tasted great and it was served with deconstructed spring rolls. We watched a few episodes of Orange is the New Black before calling it a night. 


Saturday

The most perfect weather! We started studying on the porch after making French toast for breakfast. It was super tasty. When the sun hit the deck we moved outside to study and it felt so good!

In total we studied 8:30-4:30 before going for a walk around the neighborhood. Then we showered to get ready to go to town. I wanted to take Christine and Rebecca to the Inn because it’s my favorite place. I also think the new ownership has done great things! We also love happy hour and apps. It was National Rose Day so we celebrated. For food we got the lobster dip…oh my gosh so good…


After picking up some wine, toilet paper, and water (the necessities in life) at he town store we headed home to cook some vegetables and drink sangria. Boy was that strong. 


We played with Bitmoji a bit and watched Parks and Rec. Another great day in the books.

Sunday

We said we would get up and hike…but moving early in the morning is not our thing. We opted for this instead:


Then we started studying again. Practice tests for me all day since I was burnt out from the day before. It was also over 90 degrees…so hot. Christine and I kayaked around 11:30 and it was so nice. Then we dipped into the lake for a hot second to cool off. It was refreshing but freezing. I love a good challenge, thanks Dad! 

For lunch we had classic summer food of sandwiches (turkey, cheese and avocado for me) and chips. And then more studying happened. 


Around 4:30 we drove to town to get ice cream where I had my first job, but it was closed. I was so disappointed. We opted for two cartons of Giffords instead and had dessert before dinner. Winning. The s’more flavor is amazing. 


Dinner that night was similar to the deconstructed spring rolls but with a more salad like feel. Still amazing and served with some red wine. We plopped ourselves on the couch to paint our nails and watch more Parks and Rec while trying to cool down. It was hard. 

Today some of us are leaving. I had planned to but may not since I’m not feeling well. Also I don’t have anything pulling me back to Massachusetts. Maine, it’s the way life should be, after all.

Recent Good Eats

You guys. I just got to Maine and I feel oh so relaxed. Despite the crazy day I had. It all started at 7am when I realized my Microsoft Word account had been deactivated after graduation… cue tears. 7am was not my finest hour. Then I rushed through some studying…and worrying about how I will possibly remember everything for the RD exam. Before I knew it I was showered, packed, fueled and ready to hit the road.

When I got to Maine my dad had a package of turkey sausage, a few grapes, feta cheese, and orange juice in the fridge. He had one banana, a box of rice and some pretzels on the cupboard… Since I’m saving the salad stuff and cocktail supplies for the girls this weekend I suggested we get pizza. We live in a very small town with an Inn and a general store but the store knows pizza and ice cream. They do it well. Dad suggested we get two pizzas and the girls and I can enjoy leftovers this weekend. Well boy do we have leftovers. These babies were huge! I got the mushroom because I love mushrooms. Dad went with sausage. 


Some other good eats:

A salad I made for lunch before traveling complete with leftovers: greens + grilled carrots + grilled peppers + grilled chicken + black beans + rice + salsa and guacamole as dressing. I think I hit all the major food groups! This was so good!


The tacos we had the night before has grilled chicken, mango, peppers, mango salsa and guacamole!


Here’s another salad that was simpler with rice and legumes and hummus as dressing. 


While studying I’ve been finding myself snacking more han usual and just plain hungrier. It could be stress or boredom or my body just knows it needs a little extra fuel! I’m listening to my body and giving it what it wants. Food! I’ve been craving salads more lately because the vegetables are starting to be in season!! Oh how I miss my CSA!

Blown Away in Boston

Today my mom and I explored some new-to-us areas of Boston. We woke up at the crack of dawn and caught the 6:29 commuter rail. It was dark and gloomy out (any raining) so getting up was especially hard. After a hop skip and jump onto the red line and then the orange line we finally found a shuttle to the Navy Yard. Phew. Only took us about an hour and a half. Not too shabby. I find that I enjoy train rides, but not so much buses.

The Navy Yard proved to be gorgeous! We didn’t do too much exploring because of the weather, but we did walk along the Charlestown Harborwalk. The buildings around there are so beautiful. I have no idea what they are used for, but I didn’t mind looking at them! The wind was fierce though.


I had in mind that I wanted to get lunch at Pier 6, which is literally at the end of the pier and the website showed beautiful views of Boston and the Zakim bridge. Unfortunately, the view was hindered by the fog, rain, etc. So onwards, my mom and I walked. We made sure to make the most of it by stopping to take in anything that we thought was interesting or pretty and of course talking while walking.


Or next lunch spot of interest was called the Brewer’s Fork. It smelled delicious as we rounded the corner, but it wasn’t set to open for another half hour and there was nothing else around. Therefore, I used my phone to guide us on a mile walk to the North End. We would have hopped on the subway, but the Navy Yard isn’t connected via the subway. Despite the rain it was a fun walk because we ended up on part of the Freedom Trail! If it had been nice out I really wanted to walk the Freedom Trail. That will just have to go on my bucket list


(side note: I am making a bucket list for Boston and it is going to be the longest bucket list ever). 

We crossed over a bridge and into the North End. Now let me tell you about the bridge. It’s old. And cars drive over it. Leading up to the bridge I was all giddy about being on the Freedom Trail. Then I stepped on the bridge and looked at my feet. Terrible idea. The bridge was open, as in I could see the ocean below the “mesh” wiring or whatever it was that held this bridge up. I yelled “don’t look down” to mom and mentioned to her that it was too late for me. My legs felt weak and I felt a little nauseous since we had quite a walk to get to the other side. Of course my mom thought it was fascinating and walked towards the cars to see if it was “open” under the cars too. Sure enough it was. I was so happy to get to the other side.


Getting through the North End was the hardest part because my phone was almost dead and kept losing signal for my directions. I came to the conclusion that I need a physical map when I move here so I can step into it like Joey on Friends when he is in London. Yes, I am serious.

Finally, we got to the destination of interest. I had led my mom to Panza. It’s a small Italian restaurant on Hanover Street which I went to a few years back. I have such fond memories of this restaurant because of the quaintness, the company, and the food. I was so happy to be back.


Mom and I started with some Italian wine, chianti for her and sangiovese for me. We also devoured this bread basket. That will happen when you eat breakfast before 6am. Quick carbs for the win!


We split an appetizer of mushroom and goat cheese spring rolls with a honey thyme sauce. Goodness. These. Were. So. Good. Perfectly crunchy and so flavorful! I love mushrooms and goat cheese. The honey was a bit strong for me.


For my entree I ordered the chicken “panza”. It had sundried tomatoes (a whole boatload of them), mushrooms (I wonder what my vitamin D level is…), spinach and pine nuts on top of chicken in a balamic marsala sauce. It was very delicious, but I found the flavor of the sundried tomatoes to be a bit overpowering (in a sweet way). By no means does this mean it was not extremely delicious, but I think my taste buds wanted something a bit more savory. The dish came with a side of penne pasta and marinara sauce and I dipped some bread in the sauce and immediately wished I had gotten something with that sauce on it. Boy was it fresh and delicious. My mom went with the chicken piccata. Also a great choice. What I loved was that the dish was all protein and vegetables with the pasta on the side. With a dish like that the pasta can get lost. I went with the bread for my carbs instead of the pasta simply because the bread was so dough-y and amazing, just like I had remembered.


We chatted for a while before heading to a pastry shop. I told mom I wanted to take her somewhere and she immediately guessed pastries. She was looking at a map to find a T station and asked if we were going to Marco’s Pastry and I told her that’s for amateurs. Mike’s Pastry was literally a block away. And NOT CROWDED! We couldn’t decide and ultimately went with three cannolis…for two people. When in Rome people. Yes, I eat dessert and sometimes I buy a dozen donuts or 3 cannolis. I’m normal. And I enjoy food.


We took our box to go and headed towards Boston Public Market where I was in heaven. Neither of us had been there before and it’s right by Haymarket and Fanueil hall. I write those names like I am familiar with them, but alas they are going to go on my bucket list once I research them some more. I found my favorite street by the market which is actually the street that the Union Oyster House is on. It’s so cute and curvy.


Anyways, I love that the market is indoors and that it houses local products only. We saw donuts (yup!), cheese (LOTS of Jasper Hill! Love <3), homemade pasta, fresh cuts of meat, seafood (SO happy to be by the ocean!), bagels being made right before my eyes, chocolate, etc. etc. Our favorite stop was called American Stonecraft. They gather stones from local farms in New England and polish them up for sale. The name of the farm is on the back and some are used for cooking and others are used for serving food or as coasters. Mom and I went on a mission to find stones from Vermont. We found some from Jasper Hill Farm in Greensboro! So exciting. Another thing I love about Boston Public Market is the community kitchen and the wellness activities held for the community. Going on the bucket list!


Around 2pm we walked the wrong way to find the T station, but quickly laughed about it once we saw the big round T sign where we ultimately just came from. It took maybe 5-7 minutes and one subway switch to get back to South Station where we had some time to kill before catching the commuter rail. Therefore, we dug into our cannolis! I had the Florentine and I am never going back. It’s a plain ricotta with chocolate chips but the shell is made with almonds and honey (I think). It’s a bit crunchier of a shell and that is what I like. I ate half and took a bite of mom’s amaretto but was soon stuffed. So I then finished making my flashcards for the day. Gotta keep studying for the RD exam. Vitamins and minerals are kicking my butt…

Like a true commuter I fell asleep on the train back to Halifax. I so enjoy the commuter rail and look forward to when I get to take it. Overall today was a fantastic day and I am so glad my mom came to share in my excitement for all things food and local! Boston is going to be such an exciting place to live. I only hope I can budget my restaurant outings and trips to places like Boston Public Market!